The Point in Disappointment

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“Hope deferred makes the heart sick” ~Proverbs 13:12a

            It sure does, doesn’t it? Proverbs speak to the human condition, and this one is no exception. We’re all familiar with disappointment. You don’t get invited, you don’t get the promotion, or the heartbreak of a break-up is hard to shake. Can I be real with you? Lately, it’s been tempting to view singleness itself as one long string of disappointments. In my 20’s, the single life has been an overall positive experience. The Lord has used my status in greater ways than I could imagine. Yet every once in a while, an event will unearth emotions that force me to put into practice everything I write about. Do I really believe that God is good? Does He truly have my best in mind?  Unreturned interest [again], loneliness when life is tough and I honestly just want to be held, and heart-shaped candy overrunning the grocery store can all serve as triggers for a sick heart.  So what will it look like to climb out of this rut? I believe the answer is found in the second part of the verse.

Part B of the proverb says that “a desire fulfilled is a tree of life.” At first glance, this line doesn’t seem like it could be a comfort to those of us with sick hearts. We understand that our fulfilled desire would be awesome. That’s what makes deferment so tough! But I find it interesting how the picture chosen is a “tree of life.” That same symbol is used in the Garden of Eden as the promise of provision, in Jeremiah 17 to illustrate a man whose trust is in the Lord, and in Revelation 22, which describes another tree of life that bears fruit in the New Earth.  Yes, getting the good things we want this side of heaven would be great, but even those things can’t truly fulfill us.  The shrubs that sprout with a new relationship or a new job can indeed bring temporary satisfaction, but they pale in comparison to the ultimate gifts that the Sower has in store.

Ecclesiastes 3:11 tells us that God has written eternity on our hearts. So what does disappointment point to? God fashioned us with a mechanism for hope. The temporary gifts He graciously gives us may use this design plan from time to time, but when it fails us in the short run, we need to understand that it won’t in the long run. Our hopes will ultimately find their restful bliss in Christ and His redemptive plan. He alone has the power to forever wipe away tears. He alone has the ability to satisfy the deepest longings of our souls. Only Jesus can heal our sick hearts. The beautiful part is that the deferment only adds to the bliss of fulfillment. It’s worth the wait.

So what do we do in the meantime? Should we hope for earthly things at all, or should we just build walls around our hearts and hope that Jesus returns soon? I see the temptation to start putting some bricks together. Even though I have this desire for marriage, the fear of rejection sometimes prevents me from putting myself out there. Nevertheless, I think God has more in store for our hurts and hopes than eventual eternity.

A symbol that comes to mind when I think of unfulfilled hopes is a wishing well. But, if you really think about it, the picture it paints isn’t all that hopeful. Just throw in your spare change and watch it fall to the bottom. It will join other dreams in a watery grave. No redemptive value or investment, just algae-collecting. Then, you go on with your life, longing for something that may or may not happen.

God’s kingdom operates very differently than a wishing well. In His detailed plan, deferred hopes do so much more than collect pond scum. Each rejection, every heartache, all the missed opportunities are invested. They are sown like seeds that will have their time to bring forth fruit. The fruit may be as simple as time spent with Jesus while you walked through a healing process. Perhaps it will look like a tender heart that is a comfort to others, having experienced loss. Or maybe it will be a thicker skin that’s ready to take on what life has in store. No ache will be wasted. It all has a purpose. If you feel like you’ve been hit with one disappointment after another, know this: God is going to cash all that in one day.

That being said, do we continue to hope for earthly events to take place? With some hesitation, my answer is yes. I hesitate because I know it will mean more heartache for a lot of us. I hesitate because I realize the struggle of finding ultimate hope in Jesus with other competing hopes in our hearts. But is heartache really the end of the world? Ache means growth if you are following Christ. Longing reminds Believers that ultimate satisfaction is waiting in what’s to come. So maybe we should continue to prayerfully, yet prudently hope for good desires, offering it up to God and trusting that He has a purpose for it, either in heartache or fulfillment.

 

Love,

Rachelle

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4 thoughts on “The Point in Disappointment

  1. I love that somehow this poped on Relevant Magazine today after I got yet another disapointment last night. Thank you for the encouragement. I like being single and I like being me, so I got it good in a way, but sometimes, something happens, someone says something, and my heart is sick and I don’t want to do this anymore. So thanks for the timely encouragement!

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  2. Thank you for writing this encouraging piece! You penned down beautifully what’s been on my heart as well.

    I’m single and in my thirties 😉 I could have gotten married a few times (thank God He led me out of those unequally yoked situations), then I’ve been horribly broken by relationships where I thought “missionary dating” might work (99% of the time a baaadddddd idea that’s only great for the enemy) and now… well, once bitten twice shy. I can’t give a flying two hoots about dating or the men who try to pursue me anymore (so many worldly ones, oh Lord please where are the Christian ones?!)

    I was really struck by this line you wrote: “Should we hope for earthly things at all, or should we just build walls around our hearts and hope that Jesus returns soon? ” That’s exactly how I’ve been feeling. Disappointment hurts, and rather than risk the pain of “hope deferred”, I’ve been building walls. I often question if I’m just using God as an excuse to close myself off. I’m ready to resign to my fate of becoming a nun for Christ, lol.

    But truth is, no matter what the outcome, the season of waiting is God’s refining fire. It’s a process of dying to self. Seeking His kingdom first. I’ve drawn closer to Him. I’ve grown stronger and wiser against the enemy’s attacks. Amen to what you said “It all has a purpose… God is going to cash all that in one day.” There is no testimony without a test!

    It’s hard.. waiting for that God-loving man who will love you like Christ loves the church, and who will work to pursue God’s kingdom together with you… that is what God designed marriage to be about. As His children we should not settle for any less than His best purposes for us. I want to do marriage the way He intended, or not at all. Psalm 37:4 “Delight yourself in the LORD and He will give you the desires of your heart.” We must trust that our God is a good Father. Ultimately, a life with Him, the perfect bridegroom, is far better than any earthly marriage can be.

    Shalom blessings x

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    • A to the men! 😊 You have the experience to back up my post! So encouraging to my heart to hear from someone who has her share of heartbreak and still sees God’s guiding hand. Praying for you to bump into God’s best this week, whether it’s a future husband, a new passion, or a wealth of fruit in ministry that brings deep, soul dancing joy! Stay the course, sista! 💕

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